I came home tonight and you were not here. I couldn’t see you, I couldn’t hug you, I couldn’t kiss you. Why is it that I know where you are, I know you are well, but I feel so much pain? You’ve been gone a month and the pain is so fresh. It hurts more today than ever. I feel more alone than ever. I think its starting to settle in that you are gone. It took me leaving our home and returning to realize that you left for good. I miss you. I love you. Every note you left behind, every memory you gave me is a reminder of a love lost.

God giveth and God taketh away.

I want to stay strong, I want to be the man I promised I would be, but it isn’t getting easier, its getting harder. God has given us so much, but without you here to share it with me, how can I enjoy it? I look at the boys and so much of you is in them. I look at Cash and I see your face, I play with Brody and I feel your heart. Still something is missing.

God giveth and God taketh away.

I am here and you are gone. I think about you every second, I miss you every second, I love you every second of every day. Is this pain going to continue to get worse? Will I heal as God has healed you? I want to see you again. I will keep my promises and I will make sure that day will come.

God giveth and God taketh away.

I love you, I miss you and I will see you again.

Gabe