Grieving
I Trust You
Heavenly Father, I am sorry. I lied to you. I told you I would never deny you and I would always trust you. But… You knew better, you knew that was just not true. Yet, you still love me and smile on me every day. I cry, I whine, I get scared, every day. Yet, [&hellip
God’s Plan
I am part of the fallen Paradise… I have spent the good part of 2 years seeking God in a way that I have never in my life. There was a day that I lived and breathed without thinking about what God wants for me. That day is gone. I thought that seeking Him meant [&hellip
Pissed Off at God
So everyone ”professional” tells me it’s ok to be mad at God. I have had some real anger issues with Him the last several months and haven’t been able to get past them. So I am hoping writing will clear the air between us! Because He has my utmost respect, I am going to try [&hellip
Touch Me
The most unfortunate thing about losing a spouse is the only other person that fully knows your love is the one that went to heaven. So to describe that love to another person outside the marriage is merely impossible. In fact, as time goes on, I find myself using less and less words or just [&hellip
Madrigal
Madrigal I long to turn my path homeward, to stop a while with you More than Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthdays or any other event, this is the one that I’ve been dreading. Our anniversary. The 10th of our marriage, the 19th of us being… well, “US”. …I’ve been silent here for some time. This shall continue [&hellip
In the End
…But if I think, oh, like you think, It don’t make my load much lighter The time has come for these blogs to come to an end. Writing has been quite therapeutic. …and I’m sure it will continue, but not for public consumption. I have come to the conclusion that there are too many close [&hellip
Bravado
If we burn our wings flying to close to the sun, if the moment of glory is over before its begun… I know some of these blogs begin to sound repetitive, and I don’t know if I’m trying to convince myself or you the reader of all of these things – but none the less, [&hellip
Open Secrets
Open Secrets It went right by me, at the time it went over my head, I was looking out the window, I should have looked at your face instead. I have been going through the painful yet therapeutic process of letting parts of Michele go – Making parts of the house, one room at a [&hellip
Tears
Tears flow. They come from the heart. They come from sadness, and the memories of such unbridled joy and happiness. Thanksgiving is here. For the first time since we moved into this house 7 years ago, there aren’t two turkeys in brine. There aren’t other dishes prepped for all the cooking today. There isn’t a [&hellip
A Letter to Scott
Dear Scott, Well, it’s been a year since I have touched you, held you, kissed you, hugged you, laughed with you, made fun of you, corrected you, cooked for you, helped you, went on a date with you, cleaned for you, enjoyed life with you… But I can still hear you, sense you, smell you, [&hellip
