Grieving
Start Painting
Presley’s first Halloween she was a pea in a pod- hence where she gets the name “P” and “Pod.” Last year, she was Tinker Bell at one event and a witch at another. It was the first year Scott and I went to Halloween as something together. We have celebrated several Halloweens together and have [&hellip
Resist
”I can learn to coexist with anything but pain.” …I understand, fully, that pain is a part of the process, and that even in the deepest and happiest moments of my future, the pain will still be with me – but feeling it daily, and feeling it in uncontrolled waves isn’t natural – it isn’t [&hellip
A New Beginning
In 10 days, I will marry my best friend. After finally completing my education, I was getting anxious to take the next big step in life. When Erik proposed, I was elated, and finally felt that I belonged somewhere, forever. I am now faced with so many worries…worries that I will disappoing my new husband [&hellip
Dreamline
Is It real? Am I dreaming? Which one is real? Which is the dream? …once your conscious takes over, that’s an easy question to answer. Reality comes into focus and the dream becomes a bit fogged – but its still there. There’s the daily slap. Perhaps just a tad bit less sting. I haven’t heard [&hellip
Time Stand Still
Tonight, I got to spend the night with some of the most important people in my life. Jaime, Homer, Christian, Chris, Gary and my sister, Sara. A table full of laughter. Smiles. Heart. Lots of conversation of old memories of Michele. …some tears were shed, but far more laughter was heard. Good memories. I know [&hellip
Fly By Night
…some of my fellow Rush compatriots may be seeing a theme. I’ll leave it at that. My thoughts today? Cluttered. …all over the place. Good and bad. Happy and sad. Mia and I went to see mommy last night. We held each other, cried, read a bunch of headstones (which is always an interesting experience) [&hellip
Questions
When I miscarried the first time, I was angry at God. I couldn’t understand why He would allow us to conceive after over three years of waiting for a child only to rip that blessing right out of our hands. When it happened a second time, I was baffled. I remember driving in my car [&hellip
Lessons
I woke up again this morning. …and the slap to my face as reality hit was just as hard as it was yesterday. …but today, I feel just a little bit less alone. Yesterday, Just as I was beginning to feel that there was no hope, no connection to God, and indeed no connection to [&hellip
love of a lifetime…
I met my husband on February 22, 1997…from that day on, we literally were only a part from one another for a few days at the most. He became my best friend, my lover, my everything. We had a family together and were blessed beyond measure. He was diagnosed with stomach cancer on July 7th [&hellip
The Hole and the Island
I had what I would normally describe as a nice weekend this weekend. Took the kids out for a fun activity on Saturday morning, enjoyed lunch with some of my best friends and their family while the kids played, everyone went to the Pumpkin Farm in Celina, watched some college football and wrapped it up [&hellip
