…some of my fellow Rush compatriots may be seeing a theme. I’ll leave it at that.

My thoughts today? Cluttered. …all over the place. Good and bad. Happy and sad.

Mia and I went to see mommy last night. We held each other, cried, read a bunch of headstones (which is always an interesting experience) and talked to mommy. We SO miss you and LOVE you that our hearts are beaten. …but we won’t let them be broken. …no matter the hurt, we love each other, and we have the capacity to love again. Mia is my little Michele, and so long as I have her, I have Michele with me.

…and when you consider how much of who I am today was molded by Michele and how much of Chase and Mia are Michele, everyone who is with us will also have Michele with them.

I’m proud of my wife. I’m proud of my daughter. I’m proud of my son. I’m proud of me.

…and this morning, shortly before sunrise, I experience Joy for the first time in weeks. …and I thank my Shelby. I thank God. I thank my guardian angel.

My thoughts today? Fly by Night.

Why try? Now why?
This feeling inside me says it’s time I was gone
Clear head, life ahead
It’s time I was king, now not just one more pawn

Fly by night away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night, goodbye my dear
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend

Moon rise, thoughtful eyes
Staring back at me from the window beside
No fright or hindsight
Leaving behind that empty feeling inside

Fly by night away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night, goodbye my dear
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend

Fly by night away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night, goodbye my dear
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend

Start a new chapter, I find what I’m after
It’s changing every day
The change of a season is enough of a reason
To want to get away

Quiet and pensive, my thoughts apprehensive
The hours drift away
Leaving my homeland, playing a lone hand
My life begins today

Fly by night away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night, goodbye my dear
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend

Fly by night away from here
Change my life again
Fly by night, goodbye my dear
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend

My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend
My ship isn’t coming and I just can’t pretend