This is me…

I am a sinner.

I am human.

I am a man of God.

I lost my wife at 28.

I am left with two boys I love to no end.

I feel I have a calling to do something and I am pursuing it.

God has blessed me with someone to love and I embrace her.

On September 23rd my heart kept beating and I kept breathing.

Something has been put on me in the last few days that I can not explain, but fear has been put in me.

There was a day a few months ago I thought I was being told to let go.

The next day I felt I had.

It was not until today that I realized I never did.

I have many choices, many thoughts, many emotions.

The ones I have today revolves around letting go of my wife…

and it wasn’t that I realized I needed too…

It was that I have.

I need to live. I need to love. I need to be complete at the end of this road and if I don’t let go I will never get there.

It may sound harsh, you may not understand it, but this is me. This is my heart.

I choose to live.

Do you have a gift? Use it.

Do you have a calling? Pursue it.

Do you love someone? Love them.

You have one time to do this and it is now. Its not tomorrow, because that is not promised.

Do not have fear except in the Lord.

Fear is death.

Live.

1 John 4:18

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Gabe