While standing in the wind…

I started seeing my life differently.

It wasn’t so much the things that I had done and what I would have changed, but more about what I can do now and beyond that, what am I suppose to do?

It was taking a good, long, hard look at myself and understanding that I am who I am because of Him.

I was born a sinner and I sinned.

If I was born again, I would still be a sinner, but would I sin?

Of course.

But, that being a hard truth to escape, where do I go from here?

Why am I here? Who do I live this life for?

The answer was simple…

Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

Ok, so what do I do…

Do I live the life of ignorance that I knew so well?

Do I ignore the feelings I had been having?

Do I become a better man?

If I do, then how?

So I prayed the most unforgettable prayer of my life. Something I could not take back and something I don’t even think I had control over in the first place…

A normal evening, the kids asleep, Lindsay in bed, me on the couch, I prayed…

“Dear Lord, if we have to go through hardships to become closer to you, we will.”

I said “we”…

Gabe