Dear Heavenly Father,
Tonight, I am taking a moment to remember the blessings You have given to me. Lord, please open my heart to be vulnerable for You. Let my words and prayers reach the hearts and souls of those who need it most. Let Your words spring to life.
Thank You for Your greatest gift… love. If it wasn’t for love, there would be no need for sorrow or pain, compromise or understanding, honor or support. I find myself asking the question often, “is it better to have loved and lost? Or to have never loved at all?” Lord, I chose love then and I would choose love again. Thank You for my unworldly marriage and giving me fifteen amazing years with one of Your most beautiful creations, Scott. Thank You for the oodles and oodles of love You have given to me in people around me, including my family and friends and my sweetest blessing of all, Presley Paige. Let this love… Your love, flow in and through me, triumph over all.
Even amongst this storm, I am still able to see You romancing me. Lord, don’t let me lose this gift. I need to be able to see and feel Your love around me…
In sunsets and dew droplets.
In laughter and tears.
In a pair of deer placed in my path just for me.
Humbly, I thank You.
With each step I take toward my journey home, I want You to be the center and Your Holy Spirit to enter in and intercede on my behalf at every moment needed. I have felt You by my side every inch of the way, for which I want to thank You.
Lord, You have given me this burden to wear daily and even when I can’t find it, help me to search for Your reasoning. Help me to gain Your wisdom and become more like You through this trail. Lord, I know the tribulations set before us are not for our own gain but for others. Just as You and so many others have shown me comfort in my darkest pits, let me be a small source of light for those who need You. Please protect me from every satanic scheme and source of destruction. In fact, I ask Lord that You would bring double-fold the goodness and mercy my way for every evil attack. Let the enemy be defeated and regret the day he thought to come my way!
I come to You in prayer, let this pouring out of my heart, help me with my healing process and give me a sense of clarity, support and peace. I am starting on this very public roller coaster, to not gain understanding from others but to honor Scott and Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Lord, when November 13, 2011 happened to me, I asked you, “Ok Lord, what do you want me to do with that?” I want to not only honor Scott through this process but mostly to glorify You and bring others to You! The biggest way for me to honor Scott, is to be sure that he sees his daughter again… check! Will do, Lord! Now for the glorifying You part… give me the words to show grace and mercy towards Scott and to show others about Your amazing love, so they will come to know Your Son.
For those who know me and those who will soon learn my heart, let Your light shine through me! Let others see the joy upon my face as a reflection of You! I want others who know me to want what I have and can’t help themselves but to drink from Your Holy Spirit! Let them know my joy comes from the Lord! Let them hear my heart song and sing along! Let them one day dance with me at heaven’s gates! Let them feel all of my soul!
“You are the potter, I am the clay. Mold me and make me, this is what I pray.” As I grow to trust in You, and as I grow in my knowledge of Your goodness and mercy for me, mold my character until others around me say “she looks just like her daddy!”
In Christ’s name I pray,
Amen
In His grip.
Lindsey
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